our scars have the power to remind us that the past was real.
- hannibal lector, silence of the lambs.
yay.my hands are feeling a bit funny like damn crampy when i type.super tired now but so freaked out by silence of the lambs i don't dare go sleep. :c hbo was showing it omg they should be sued for showing so many ra parts.horrible.i was so traumatised.actually.too sleepy to be traumatised properly.i think the rehearsal today was quite shit cos i forgot all my steps in front of everybody and i realise what i've gotten myself into when i realise so many people are coming and hopefully they stare at charmaine,brynner,sheng,steph,jeff,haoguang and not at me cos i'll be probably damn lag.shit scared.
isn't it a bit sad how we must always learn from our mistakes by experiencing the repercussions ourselves?it's like wwii and cold war,burning your hand and knowing not to put your hand in the fire,letting out a loud fart in public and getting ostracised by the entire world,saying something stupid and stared at.somewhere along that lines.with all that experience,someone's bound to get hurt somewhere.but it seems we don't remember the mistakes and the lessons we learn from there until there are consequences that affect us deeply.which leaves space for deep thought.why do people repeat the same mistakes over and over again.maybe we really do need some really drastic changes that take effect in our lives to change and change forever.
it turns out that it's not only me who doesn't appreciate your so-called bonds of friendship.the fragile vulnerable threads that hold us together have finally snapped for the last time,and i'm not willing to go chase after you to reconnect them again.sick and tired of actually having to go placate you when i was never in the wrong,having to accede to your demands when i never wanted to,having to accomodate you when i didn't have to.it seems i was not the only one you offended really badly.the people you offended were,in your view,not cool enough to hang out with,or only useful for temporary fallbacks.it turns out,the people you rejected were actually the people of substance you silly twit.
talk about karma.
